so my sister died about a month and a half ago. i'm upset about that, sure, but what's really been making me cry lately is how much i miss this one boy. we were friends, and as soon as i expressed concern for his well-being, he shut me out.
i tear up every time i think about him because i wonder, is he happier with me gone? signs point to yes, because he hasn't talked to me since. and if he's not, whenever i see him around it always seems like he's feeling better. maybe my constant venting and crying were what made him decide my asking if he was okay the final straw. it's just everything at once, though, isn't it?
and what i don't understand is... how can you decide to leave someone so suddenly?