Pretty GirlI'm pretty, right?
No?Well, let me eat lessAnd tan more,Burn my hair to make it straightAnd spend all my money on clothes.[Am I pretty now?]
SailingShe sailed on the milky way,On a boat made of stardust.Planets danced around herTwirling and jumping.Her mind was far awayIn the clouds of heaven.And somewhere on EarthSomeone called,"Come home, come home."
WishesI wish on stop signsAnd kisses,Warm blanketsAnd coffee.[Because stars always have been a bit overrated]
MoonI can't imagine that kind of emptiness.
Give UpShe wanted a freeze button, a pause button, a wait-and-come-back-later button.But such a button did not exist, so she settled for the next best thing.A stop button, a quit button, a give up button.And when she pressed it, her life snapped off, and that was the end of the 21st Century girl.
JealousShe danced in the streetsAnd sang on the subway.People had every rightTo be jealous of her.[For we rarely find a personWho is so alive]
No Hope"I lost hope for myself a long time ago," he tells me.I listen, drinking up his words. I want to make more spill out of his mouth, so I ask "Why?" It slips out of my mouth and takes flight and flutters on the cool October breeze."Because," he says, the word hanging in the air, "there's no hope left for any of us."The words float over to me, pierce my skin. I don't want to believe they left red welts on my skin, burning into my mind. Which is why I say, "Yes there is. Hope is like maybe. It always turns out to be a yes in the end. And if it's not, then it's just a no."He laughs, the sound bouncing into my ears. "You're pretty wise for a kid your age, girl.""Maybe."
FamousIf I become a famous poet,I won't be remembered.[But you will be]
28"If you close your eyes," she told me, "stairs become cliffs and puddles turn into oceans."So I did. I closed my eyes and the world became brighter. With her I would cliff dive and swim to new lands, find Atlantis and the Center of the Earth in the same day. We would have picnics by the Amazon river and watch the sunrise in Australia, and I would dread going to sleep, because that's when I'd finally have to open my eyes, and whenever I did, I'd be in Reality and she wouldn't be there.
Missing YouMissing youIt hurts me beyond beliefI cry at night,sleep my only reliefAnd the worst part is that overshadowing my griefIs guiltYou loved me unquestioninglySo loyallyThere whenever I needed youWhere was I when you needed me?I was slamming the door in your faceSaying I don't want youAnd now you're gone and I NEED youI can never make it up to you but if I couldI wouldDo anything to bring you backRealization of what I hadComes too late
I still love youThough you may have broken my heart,I still love you.Though you may have hurt me,I still love you.Though I'm angry with you,I still love you.With all of my heart.To me, you're perfect in every way.Your angelic voiceYour caring natureYour gorgeous blue eyesYour sensitivityYour funny dispositionYour helpfulnessYour scentYour touchThe way you loved and cared for meYou're amazing.And yes I am suffering without you,But it was worth it just to be with you.You silly foolish boy,I still love you.
Thinking with my heart.I'm so far away from you,I know I'm sitting right beside you,holding hands and smiling (empty smiles)but I'm so immerse in my paranoid thoughts,so far away to wherever I'm physically sitting,that earth just sounds like a metaphor.And a lame one if I may add. You only know what you got when you lose it. Do you have to lose meto tell me all the things I want to hear?I'm a hopeless romantic and honey,I know I claim I ain't got a fear,but my biggest fear is losing you,and I'm afraid that's a prophecy you wrotefor us both the moment you said "when" instead of "if"You see how important words are?You change one and my whole world crumbles down.There's nothing we can do about it.But it's okay, because apparently I am addicted to this,to all these pain and insecurities.I am addicted to this "Shoot me, I beg you" kind of feeling.And does it even matter,if my heart whispers stay andmy self-destructive instinct screams leave?And my head has nev
The Lies We Tell OurselvesI'll stop pretending to be okay,I'll stop lying to myself and accept thatI'm in total disarray. I blinded myself witha lie saying I didn't need you.I lied to myself when I said I can behappy without you. For awhile it workedexactly like a perk, it made all my paindisappear, all my agonies unreal, but myuncontentment reappeared. I see no color,I see no reason, I see nothing but a voidwithout a proper decorum. For once I wishthat I could turn back time, relive the momentsthat made me feel so alive, because all I wantto do, is live my life forever with you.As I got lost in my memories, oh the bittersweetsensation, your angelic smile gleaming through thewhite abyss of damnation. So this would be mylast confession, to save myself from utterhumiliation. How I wish you could see the pitifulstate I'm in, oh how I wish you said "you too"when I uttered the words "I love you".
his ashesshe keeps his ashesin her kitchen cabinet,in a heavy urnthat she holds sometimes.maybe it is her wayof being close to him,still.she lives alonenow that he's gone.the house feelstoo emptywith only her there.she is withering awayslowlywithout him.she's barely a fragmentof who she was,now that he's gone.she has no reason to live,she says.he was her life,and without him (or his doctor appointments, or his medications, or his chemotherapy)she has nothing to doand no where to go.she sleeps more nowand has less energywhen she wakes, alone.she has no one to talk to.the last few yearshe became her life;she had little time,or will,to make new friends.but now that he'sgoneshe has no one.all alone in her big house.I think shespends her daystalking to his ashes,up in the kitchen cabinet;holding one-sidedconversationswith his heavy urn,so she can feelclose to the man sheloves.
Never Have INever have ILoved anotherLike I love youNever have IHurt over anotherLike I've hurt over youThe emotion that pulsesThrough my heartIs nothing like I have everFelt beforeIts beyond meThis game that we call lifeI know I've hurtI know I've liedBut I'll never stopLoving youNot for all the dreams in the universe
I cried for you.Last night I cried about you.I cried for you.Wanting you.Wishing I was next to you.This love we share is different then most.We survive on true connection.While we yet have to feel each other's touch.But I can't stand this pain of not having you near me.I promise not to leave you & I know you won't leave me.I just can't stand being alone & I know if you were here you would help come save me.After each call.After each text.You'll be there beside me.Now all I can do is imagine. But now I'm afraid.I'm starting to lose faith & hope.It hurts.I won't give up I promise you that, but right now I just don't know.
Don't Leave MeI dreamed I lost youI couldn't help but crynow that I woke upI realized it was just a lieYou're my other halfthe part I can't live withoutyou're the one that makes my heart beatevery time we make outI love you so muchit's hard to explainit's like this thing inside metelling me I'm saneIf you were to leave meI'd simply break apartso please, lovedon't do this to my heartMy life means nothingthat's if you're not in ityou know we belong togetherso we got to prove it
I Am The ForsakenYou're destroying megently tearing me;what did I ever do?I never hurt youPeople say you're an asshole...I say you ain't cold-just tired of it all;the reason you let me fall...Your slowly losing me'cause of your actionsand I won't dare breathetill you show me compassionYou pushed me awayand I just silently sobbedwhile words I wanted to sayleft my heart to throbI fucking love youcan't you see?!when you disappearthe more I bleedAt times I wonderoh how I think & ponderwhen we kissed, was that all you wanted?now you got it, and you'll leave me haunted?Well it certainly worked...you kissed me-now you can go...I was so naivebut now am left begging on my knees
To Whom It May Concern..Don't you see?What you've done to me..You've hurt me so deeply-So much I can't bare to see,What stares back at me,In this dirty reflection called myself.You forced me to-Lock my dreams away,Making me feel dirty for wanting something for myself.You make me cry myself to sleep-Make me wrench my tears,I feel so weak.Hating you so,Just wishing to go..Be nothing more.I just wish..You'd open your eyes,Just realize-How much you fucking hurt me.Why can't you just love me?Stop cussing about how you hate my hair,About how I'm gonna fail this year.I just want some love-To know that I'm not a stupid failure after all..
Love-DeathThere is no life after you...I'd be heartlessand souless.Both, I gave to you.And with both,I'll sweep up the pieces,and put it in a bagfor you.Because,whole or not,they're rightfully yours.
Love and DeathShe liked her,He liked him.They were fine with it,And all lived happily ever after.Because that's how it goes, right?They sneered at her,They laughed at him,They killed them both,And they all lived happily ever after.Because that's how it goes, right?